delight: (only a bit broken)
primum non nocere sans documentum ([personal profile] delight) wrote2022-04-11 10:39 am

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SO, I'm super depressed! The endogenous kind that has no situational cause, but makes me completely unable to do anything.

Have been for a few months now; dysfunctionally, disastrously super depressed. I'm supposed to be diarying specific details and tracking the function of my upcoming rTMS therapy, but that'll go in a different account since I want it to be able to be public for my doctor & company to be able to see but don't want to force my present DW audience to read it.

HOWEVER, getting proper treatment when meds don't work has turned into a three-ring circus. It concluded two of its rings over the weekend when I went to the crisis unit asking if they could maybe make it happen faster than June, since I thought I was going to die. They did. But ...

The rest of the story is the embedded tweets, because I'm not telling it twice on this energy level:











I left comments open just in case but pls do not anticipate replies. ♥
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[personal profile] yhlee 2022-04-11 03:53 pm (UTC)(link)
:hugs: I'm so sorry you're dealing with all of this.
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[personal profile] sixbeforelunch 2022-04-11 04:53 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs* if wanted.
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[personal profile] finch 2022-04-11 05:02 pm (UTC)(link)
The system is so, so broken. I'm glad you were able to find a solution for the moment and I hope this is the beginning of improvement for you. <3
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[personal profile] telophase 2022-04-11 07:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Thinking of you.
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[personal profile] siderea 2022-04-11 07:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Good grief, I am so very sorry you're dealing with all that. I hope you get some relief soon.
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[personal profile] azurelunatic 2022-04-11 08:27 pm (UTC)(link)
<3
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[personal profile] rachelmanija 2022-04-11 10:43 pm (UTC)(link)
FUCK THIS SADISTIC SYSTEM. I am so sorry.

If you are OK with linking, I would like to read your rTMS diary. If not, no worries.
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[personal profile] kalmialatifolia 2022-04-12 11:27 pm (UTC)(link)
i would like at this point to metaphorically bonk my head into you in sympathy, and frequent empathy.
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[personal profile] forests_of_fire 2022-04-14 12:37 pm (UTC)(link)
ugh. I hate the American health care system so much. I'm sorry you're having to deal with this.