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I miss all of Dreamwidth very much.

The past few months have been utter trash, and I'm popping up again because I need a little financial help. The story's all in the GoFundMe.

This is upsetting and embarrasing, but I'm doing my best!
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Paid account expires ... theme switches back to red?

No, DW. I may not be able to pay you right now, but I do want you to stay purple, please!

query:

Jan. 19th, 2025 04:06 pm
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Does anyone need a Trello alternative with the majority of the Trello features that costs less than Trello?

I have installed Restyaboard on my VPS and it is kickass, much better than fellow open-source Kanboard because it is smoother and nicer, but the added minimum CPU needed costs more than I can keep up on my own so I'm testing out charging people a miniscule amount like $1 a month or $10 or a year.

But there's the caveat that it would be living at fabrefaction.gay, which is not exactly the most "publically selling space" URL ever. Contrary to the way it sounds like putrefaction, though, the name is perfectly apt!
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We gave one of our staff awards to Boogie the six year old orange tabby today. Also a bunch of humans, but Boogie was the best of them.

Boogie also wouldn't go in his carrier and so he had to accept it by video call.

He really did fulfill all of the requirements for the nomination, with evidence. Exact same requirements as the humans.

(I made the program so I have known about the recipients, including the one I call my left-join supervisor, for a month. I had to keep this secret from everyone for an entire month.)

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I am ONCE AGAIN PAYING ATTENTION.

This time I will not vanish again quite so quickly.
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In conclusion, Sil may have solved our office's "always 81 degrees" problem, but OH BOY has it been an experience getting there!

Tragically I have no photos (for the incident report, not for this), because, seriously, I should have taken a picture very quickly in order to make the corrective action paperwork more convincing. I couldn't take a screenshot either. I became increasingly punchy, as did everyone else, and by the time Sil got me I was a hysterical giggling mess but they were able to help.

So I'm in the middle of a presentation, and I'm showing someone how to add facilities to a report when my screen goes blue and says UNKNOWN HARD ERROR. At which point I look up to the laptop rack where my actual computer is (I use a 32" monitor and my desk has a high shelf so it lives way up there) and see .. what looks like steam coming out. But there's no water anywhere, so my team is all confused about how there could possibly be steam, because we are all missing the obvious answer. That comes into play a little later. First, I've called back in via my phone, someone else takes over the presentation, I watch it on my phone and do my talky bits, and then when I explain the details of my issue my supervisor's computer, which has long been referred to as the 'haunted one,' starts again moving the mouse around by itself and emails have again disappeared without her touching them. This happens, like, weekly.

The person not in our department says "you all REALLY need new laptops." We know. They all run super hot and super loud. In the meantime I've gotten mine up again and jumped into the fan settings and switched it into ULTRA COOL instead of Optimized.

(After hesitantly turning it back on after I VERY RAPIDLY turned it off.)

So we're talking about how we need to get that grant so we can get all of SUD new laptops, then we're trying to write an incident report and everyone is basically hysterical and overwhelmed, and not sure how to describe what came out of my laptop (looks like smoke, felt like steam, no water). Keep in mind we're all a mess so we're dumb.

I say "I know a chemist! Be right back," and call my bff Sil (look it rhymes with jill and is accurate okay).

Sil points out several important things to me and the extremely tired SUD team!

  1. It's steam, morons. Because the air is extremely humid. It came from the air.
  2. The damage to the systems over time is not just because they're overheating once or twice ... they're probably being haunted because our floor is stuck at 81 degrees.

So we look up the system parameters and, yep, maximum temperature for operation 77.

Now our QA director wants to give Sil a job, and we've written a ten page long incident report that has combined the indoor temp problem and the 9 different laptop issues into a single extremely complicated laptop temperature issue.

We really never got the hang of Thursdays in this department, clearly.

Also, the temperature in my living room has dropped by two degrees having switched the laptop from 'optimized' to 'cool.' Yes, we have contacted the manufacturer ... IT has talked to them many times and was told 'this line just runs really hot.' They make airplane noises, Dell.

delight: post-it note in spring holder reading "HELP!" (_support)

Copied from plurk where I originally posted this:

Anyone recall how to link directly to replying to a dw post? this layout needs to skip over the entry text and go straight to the reply form. I know there is a way that either links straight to the advanced comment page or just to the reply-at-bottom.

I have tried a quadrillion possible html anchors, and xray also doesn't show one on mode=reply.

and I'm too shy to ask in the dreamwidth team discord for some reason, though I could post to dw itself asking also. I have now posted to DW itself asking also. And linking bsky to this post.

ETA: Solved! It's #qrdiv after mode=reply.

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I post "I'm not dead," email people a couple of times, and then disappear into the ether again.

I'm barely keeping up with my job and with having inherited a fairly large panfandom RP on Dreamwidth (I will tell you in a PM or email what the game is, but for Reasons involving a stalker I RP and mod under a pseudonym these days that doesn't get associated with this journal or with my actual name—there are dangers to having an unusual and memorable name!) and I would say I am not adequately keeping up on dog training but the dog thinks I am.

My neurologist leaving the clinic did not help, I am now finally about to see a new one after a four month wait. Going the entirety of your time at a new employer without intermittent FMLA forms filled out, and therefore getting a mark against you every time you have to call out sick, is an extremely bad time with chronic hemiplegic migraine and ME/CFS (which I'm still not sure isn't myasthenia gravis) let alone my other shit! I completely bombed out on, accidentally ghosted and totally lost my consultant position, which I was heartbroken about until I was too depressed to remember what heartbroken felt like (I can no longer afford TMS).

I spend too much time on Lorwolf, a canid browser sim game that fixes everything I didn't like about Flight Rising (which I still occasionally remember to log in to but it is overwhelmingly large after twelve years) for all the time I don't have, but it is relaxing and good time. If for some reason you want to join said canid game, please use my referral code as it benefits us both.

Dog is good.

okay so:

Feb. 24th, 2024 08:04 pm
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Who is on Bluesky? I would like to add you, since I'm most active there but trying to come back to being here!

(And trying to be on Plurk less, which is where I accidentally ended up spending too much time.)

Edit: Right, I'm @pseudelight.ink and Jasper is at @jasper.dog; you're welcome to add us too! Or just one or the other. :)

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hi dreamwidth! i remain not dead! it has been close a few times recently as generalized onset seizures made a return to my life and that in turn kicked me into months of PEM, but part of the reason they were happening was stress from the job that has been causing me problems for like, years, and.

i got invited on to join a health data firm that are all 1099 workers with no employees for a little extra money, which despite the insanity of working two jobs with ME/CFS, I decided to do anyway and it's had its ups and downs so far

but most notably, I will be starting a new job next week!

... I have spent most of my notice period too sick to work, but I did use my illness as my reason for resigning so hopefully everyone is being as understanding as they appear to be. Any attempt to write anything will remain disjointed for a bit longer and I cannot for the life of me play catch-up game at this point, but I will be updating again as well as updating the dog blog once I am only balancing two jobs with sane and logical requirements and not a job where I was really doing five jobs and was being micromanaged to death.

Leaving comments open but forgive me if I am not able to reply to well-wishes etc; I will reply to any actual questions!
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Still not dead! Briefest update: essentially everything sucks, the only good update (puppy) is on the heels of two bad things (dog deaths, both in young dogs).

Brief terse update: Have not actually been reading much, but a little. Will soon be making a comeback. Still in hateful job. Beloved dog died. Got new beloved dog and then HE died. Have another beloved dog now doing service dog training with me, currently working on alerting and AKC STAR. Still on leave from PhD and have Fs now because I couldn't finish in time. Pretty sure I will be allowed to finish but I also really want to transfer to an online program because of time. Can't remember anything else of note that has happened in the last year and change except that I have been depressed unceasingly since April of 2021 despite TMS and ketamine though they both improve things a little bit.

Rather than any more updating on all the piles of bad shit that has happened, and I'm sure I've forgotten, I will only be moving forward!

Very much wishing to return to DW dev/support stuff. Pretty active on Bluesky now.

Leaving comments open but please do not comment on any of the bad shit as I wish not to discuss further; if you wish to ask questions about my puppy please do so. He also has an account which I will be using as a training log at [personal profile] dogintraining.
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Text to my mom from 20 minutes ago:

Did i tell you that on November 9th, two weeks BEFORE dad's diagnosis, "Young at Heart" played on the radio and I sobbed my little head off because I knew that something was wrong with him?

Yeah I can listen to that song now without wanting to die. As of like, today. It's still a sob festival but in a sort of happy-sad way instead of "this makes me feel like I am scratching my fingernails against a brick wall trying to dig through it because I can't get my dad back"

(The how we do journaling is "I have just enough brain to copy and paste things I want to remember later I guess," because wow the ME/CFS is still extremely oppressive on my poor brainpan.)

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Is anyone else on Grundo's Cafe?

I am turning into one of those people who plays its variant of Solitaire (it's the Neopets one, but even harder) to soothe anxiety, and I feel so like [personal profile] yhlee whenever I do. But in an era of Flight Rising having so much going on my head explodes and I can't stay on top of it, this simpler pet site that is a 2000s Neopets clone (literally, it's the old Neopets code) is very ... relaxing. A thing to do when I am dead-brained, which is like ... most of the time. So very dead brained I have forgotten how to words for a long time which is why I just haven't been here!

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Hello Dreamwidth.

I'm not dead.

That's like ... everything I can think to say right now, I have very much been in the absolute worst pit of throes of depression for many dysfunctional months, almost quit my job twice, might be getting a lateral transfer that I like better, etc. I have just become pretty much unable to words because my in-remission ME/CFS, uh. Stopped. Being in remission.

But hey, I'm still alive!!!
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I know how to report spam comments, but does anyone know if there is any way to report a spam account on Dreamwidth?

Because I've stumbled on about six of them!
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Hello, DW list! I know I am still totally a ghost. I had to take a leave from my PhD due to losing control of my epilepsy so I have kind of just been a void. Who almost lost funding for her job and got laid off, but at least we have reversed that situation. There may be some improvement to that burnout (though we may be getting pay cuts so I have to keep looking for something that pays higher as I'm paying $1100 a month to maintain my stupid brain cells).

But I still wanted to share this, since I think a lot of you would be interested. I have nothing to do with it at all, I just think it's neat (and backed it, but it's obviously getting funded).

Undying Corruption: A Korean 5e Adventure
Undying Corruption is a 400~ page 5e adventure path book that takes place in the country of Danguk, based on Korean folklore and history. Take the role of exorcists and uncover a frightful conspiracy at the heart of the country!

um.

Sep. 7th, 2022 12:56 am
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Does ... anyone know what happened to/with [personal profile] chanter_greenie?

Things

Apr. 16th, 2022 08:30 pm
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• Still perpetually tired, pretty sure it’s half depression and half pain.

• Everything else is terrible but the dog is good, so good.

• Plans to get my Lilypad RP going a bit again after all of the mods got ridiculously sick at the same time. We really were all just in a state at once like the universe wanted us in particular to stop.

• … not that I’m not still in a state! I am most definitely still dysfunctionally depressed. Haven’t done any schoolwork in weeks and barely doing my job. I start TMS on Wednesday. If people were really interested in following that logging, you are welcome to find it at [personal profile] possibility but keep in mind it’s depression blogging: completely unfiltered word spewing which will involve no content warnings and likely no cut text because it will largely be mobile, and also probably frequent short posts and not one long coherent one. Thus following is at your own risk. I know right now I cannot handle curation and labeling of content and it would also defeat the treatment tracking purpose to leave stuff out.
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SO, I'm super depressed! The endogenous kind that has no situational cause, but makes me completely unable to do anything.

Have been for a few months now; dysfunctionally, disastrously super depressed. I'm supposed to be diarying specific details and tracking the function of my upcoming rTMS therapy, but that'll go in a different account since I want it to be able to be public for my doctor & company to be able to see but don't want to force my present DW audience to read it.

HOWEVER, getting proper treatment when meds don't work has turned into a three-ring circus. It concluded two of its rings over the weekend when I went to the crisis unit asking if they could maybe make it happen faster than June, since I thought I was going to die. They did. But ...

The rest of the story is the embedded tweets, because I'm not telling it twice on this energy level. )

I left comments open just in case but pls do not anticipate replies. ♥