forcing myself to post more, round 8
Mar. 8th, 2015 04:15 pmI'm terrible at the "forcing myself to post more" game. Truly terrible. Trying again! (I am always reading. I am miserable at commenting, especially because 98% of my reading is from a phone.) All I have the energy for are little plus/minuses, so.
- Did not get my dream internship with Public Health Service; I didn't even get an interview, and my boss, parents (who are both in the field) and a lot of other people were sure I would at least merit an interview. It may be the whole ten credit F in a nursing course thing (as I had no opportunity to explain how that happened and that it was not my fault), it may illegally be that they considered me too old, it may be that I was competing with medical students so my previously somewhat impressive GPA looked like peanuts in comparison.
+ This leaves me free to work during the summer; I'll probably be taking a seasonal position with Ubiquitous Mental Health Insurance Agency, because they always need people who have a clue with EHRs for claims processing stuff. It pays more than the internship, so I will be able to actually make all the bills on my own and not lean on my mom's SSDI, which is a shady way to cover expenses.
- That's going to be the UMHIA up here, and not the one by my parents (the PHS job would have been staying with my parents). While living with my parents full-time for three months is not in any way an ideal situation, who knows if they will be my dad's last three months? So working 8-4 M-F 150 miles away is going to be a little bit of a pain.
+ Dad's started driving again, which means he may be able to go back to work part-time. This is important because when you have terminal cancer it's both good to do things you love (he really loves his job, he works for an NGO he helped create and he wasn't planning to retire until 75 for that exact reason -- he's 64) and because it's really good to keep your excellent health insurance.
- I have an exam tomorrow, an exam Wednesday, a lit review due Thursday that I haven't even started, and my coding internship through AHIMA just changed its deadline on a bunch of stuff from the 23rd to the 15th (because on the 15th they're changing the computer system over so it's going to wipe everyone's work), meaning I have more to do this week than there are hours in it. I appreciate that most of my hobbies are things I can slowly do while working, and that my entire life is in the computer ... but my RSI is going to be so angry at me.
+ For someone who keeps trying to post positive things at least once a week to make myself realize not everything about my life is terrible it is really hard for me to come up with another positive. I have awesome friends, though, even if all of them are far away. I appreciate the people who appreciate I don't have the capacity to do things that I don't care about right now, and so when my enthusiasm just isn't in a shared hobby I'm not going to give it much attention and no one cares. (The people who do care are not really my friends anymore. As evidenced by the fact that I don't talk to them at all. Which despite its suck really kind of is a positive.)
+ Oh and another one! DST. Obviously losing the work hour wasn't ideal, really. And having so many friends in Arizona makes it immensely confusing at times. But it's going to be light out when I leave the lab.
+/- I want to write Gen/Attolia for![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
unconventionalcourtship but I can't pick one I like, since they're hard to AU with like that. But with half my reading list getting into QT, it would be a lot easier to find enthusiasm with that than with any of the other fan pairings I still enjoy, which are all ... in fandoms that I think have exactly 0% presence on Dreamwidth. Or Tumblr. Or even AO3.
- Did not get my dream internship with Public Health Service; I didn't even get an interview, and my boss, parents (who are both in the field) and a lot of other people were sure I would at least merit an interview. It may be the whole ten credit F in a nursing course thing (as I had no opportunity to explain how that happened and that it was not my fault), it may illegally be that they considered me too old, it may be that I was competing with medical students so my previously somewhat impressive GPA looked like peanuts in comparison.
+ This leaves me free to work during the summer; I'll probably be taking a seasonal position with Ubiquitous Mental Health Insurance Agency, because they always need people who have a clue with EHRs for claims processing stuff. It pays more than the internship, so I will be able to actually make all the bills on my own and not lean on my mom's SSDI, which is a shady way to cover expenses.
- That's going to be the UMHIA up here, and not the one by my parents (the PHS job would have been staying with my parents). While living with my parents full-time for three months is not in any way an ideal situation, who knows if they will be my dad's last three months? So working 8-4 M-F 150 miles away is going to be a little bit of a pain.
+ Dad's started driving again, which means he may be able to go back to work part-time. This is important because when you have terminal cancer it's both good to do things you love (he really loves his job, he works for an NGO he helped create and he wasn't planning to retire until 75 for that exact reason -- he's 64) and because it's really good to keep your excellent health insurance.
- I have an exam tomorrow, an exam Wednesday, a lit review due Thursday that I haven't even started, and my coding internship through AHIMA just changed its deadline on a bunch of stuff from the 23rd to the 15th (because on the 15th they're changing the computer system over so it's going to wipe everyone's work), meaning I have more to do this week than there are hours in it. I appreciate that most of my hobbies are things I can slowly do while working, and that my entire life is in the computer ... but my RSI is going to be so angry at me.
+ For someone who keeps trying to post positive things at least once a week to make myself realize not everything about my life is terrible it is really hard for me to come up with another positive. I have awesome friends, though, even if all of them are far away. I appreciate the people who appreciate I don't have the capacity to do things that I don't care about right now, and so when my enthusiasm just isn't in a shared hobby I'm not going to give it much attention and no one cares. (The people who do care are not really my friends anymore. As evidenced by the fact that I don't talk to them at all. Which despite its suck really kind of is a positive.)
+ Oh and another one! DST. Obviously losing the work hour wasn't ideal, really. And having so many friends in Arizona makes it immensely confusing at times. But it's going to be light out when I leave the lab.
+/- I want to write Gen/Attolia for
unconventionalcourtship but I can't pick one I like, since they're hard to AU with like that. But with half my reading list getting into QT, it would be a lot easier to find enthusiasm with that than with any of the other fan pairings I still enjoy, which are all ... in fandoms that I think have exactly 0% presence on Dreamwidth. Or Tumblr. Or even AO3.
