delight: girl with camera; text "replace fear of the unknown with curiosity" (see you later innovator)

1. Do you remember when you were first addressed as sir or ma'am?
We lived in a doorman building until I was six, so the answer to this is actually when I was four and a half - the first day I walked into the building alone, without being attached to one of my parents. The doorman, who had known me since I was three, called me ma'am just like he did everyone else!

2. Do you remember when you first realized the difference between being childish and childlike?
No, but I was probably much much older than four and a half.

3. Do you remember the first time you realized you were more adult than child?
When I joined my mom's trivia IRC group, which was a subsidiary of #30plus. She let me, because I was a lonely child and was aspiring to be as good at trivia as she is (no one rivals her, I think she knows everything). I was not 30+. I was 11. Nobody noticed. Similarly, when I joined Harper's Tale, most people assumed I was college age or older. My parents, whe we were doing the neurological testing rigamarole that later revealed autism and epilepsy, told experts I hated children.

"But she is a child."

"But she can't stand other kids. She won't socialize with them. She thinks they're loud an annoying, and prefers the company of adults, most of whom really like having conversations with her."

I'm not sure I was ever a childlike child. I'm sure at times I was a childish one, though.

4. Do you remember your first taste of major independence?
It wasn't walking home from kindergarten alone, though I did do that, because it was a block and a half. This would be the first time I walked the dog by myself. I'm pretty sure I was twelve for that.

5. Do you remember what you bought with your first paycheck?
An iPod, because my old one had broken. It was not actually my first paycheck, since my first paycheck was $75. It was basically the first thing I bought with paychecks - I made $75 a week with my first adultish job (which was layout editor for my college newspaper - I self-taught InDesign and I loved it). The iPod was just shy of $700, so it took a little over two months. I was able to get away with this thanks to dorms and a meal plan.

delight: (old skool foto)
Everyone's doing it late this week, so I feel like I can too!

1) Has the weather where you are finally started acting like spring is here?
NOPE. I was at the pancreatic cancer walk this morning and it was so cold my lungs started spasming horribly and I couldn't even walk a mile because I could not breathe. It is icy and horrible.

2) Do you have any special spring activities or outings planned?
I don't trust that the season will ever change, so I can't really plan much. :( I'm supposed to be seeing my three favorite people who don't live anywhere near me at the end of this month and am hoping that the weather in Wisconsin will cooperate!

3) Have you started wearing different clothing appropriate to spring?
Yesterday I was only wearing 2 shirts and a light jacket! Today the cold came back. No sign of when it will leave again.

4) What signs of spring are manifesting around you?
Unfortunately, still nothing. So, so dreary and miserable, but when everything improves in two weeks I'll be glad I had this record of ... my ... seasonal misery ..?

5) Are there special foods you enjoy preparing and/or eating in the spring?
Preparing? Ha. But i enjoy eating fruit salads of various kinds, and the soft serve ice cream cones that in some parts of the world you can only get in warm weather.



Unrelatedly, I'm planning to quit my job with nothing else lined up. In part because it makes me work so, so hard that I don't have the energy to find a job that isn't torturing me as much. As soon as school ends, the day school ends, I'm also quitting. I wish I could have quit sooner and focused all my time on school, but I never got that option, so I'm finishing to the meager best of my ability (I hope, everything I do is late!) and then focusing 1000% of my effort on getting work I don't hate. Quickly, because I don't really have much money, and quitting for reasons of my health not going so far into the shitter I can't think clearly does not net me unemployment.

I wish I could have done my thesis without this bullshit.

It's probably good to try to live any of my life without it, though.